Things have changed so much in a short amount of TIME

Things really have changed in a short amount of time. Its all different now. People around me are there for me. And Me, I really defiently have changed. Its really stressful knowing your fading from one of the closest friends that you have made. Then again, things happen for a reason. Its difficult knowing your fading but not doing anything about it. You can't really take control of it when its happening and about to end.

To the person. You know who you are because we already had this conversation. You blame me for letting us fade. I have'nt been doing anything for us to fade. Each week, I make plans with you and you can always deny it. I observe you a little more each day, and I can't really blame you. Its just YOU. You say i've made to many friends this year, saying how popular I have gotten. You consider yourself has a replaceable person. Well I already told you from the start of freshman year till the end of our lives that noone can replace you no matter what. Although I never really heard you tell me that. You say I replaced you with my broskiis who have recently been there for me. Well I have'nt replaced you with anyone, they are just people I can now relate to and REALLY hang out with them. We all have things in common. Most of the busy. But always have some time to give out. You considerly don't. I'm not blaming you. You have a girlfriend, so I don't put pressure on you because I have other people I can fall back on. Their called Broskiis. Each time you deny my invite to whatever place, their always willing to go with me instead of me going alone. You still may think your being replaced. But knowing you think that deeply hurts inside. I never regretted being your Brother/Bestfriend and I never will. You ignore my text messages and sometimes phone calls. I ask you for a friendly ride because I want to make most of my time free to you. And you know what you do? You never realize do you? I wait alone on the curb waiting and waiting untill I thought oyu would show up. Like today. I was waiting and waiting, and when I finally said " Fuck This" I went looking for you. All I saw was you and your Girlfriend looking at me then walking away again. I'm not trying to cockblock but then again I never know where you are. You make me wait alone, I'm sincerely not happy with it. You can't relate to what i've been through with family and friends. And also MY LIFE. So I truly and deeply can't go on like this. I'm letting go, so you would'nt have to consider me as a cockblocker. I know when your mad, And you still don't tell me. You never even told me that you and her broke up for a short amount of time. Im just letting it all out as of now. That i want to be your friend but you don't have the time. Your stressed and tense, I don't want to see you like that. I put to much on you, I understand. But S'cool really. I'm tired as well. So yeah Hope you read it.

Sorry readers this blog was ment to establish something that went on today. And like yeah. Like Smashley said, Blogging is like my own teddyBear. [:
-Bryan mai