Good guys are always the ones getting hurt.

And you know its true. Well readers, yesterday was my cousin Henry's 17th birthday. Happy birthday! But yeah.. Was kind of tipsy but S'cool now. Life as I know it is great. Some people try to ruin it for me, but I let them go. Its not like I even need them in my life anyways right? If they do bad things to me or disrespects me, theres no point in having them around. There was this one person this week who made my week really long. She IMed me and was like were fading. Then we got into this big argument, what affected me was this. She said from her own words " I never really considered you as my friend anyways, I never got the time to know you" Well since the school year is almost ending, what she said about not getting to know me is all Bullshit. Everyone else got to know me. Ask anyone that I spent time with. Her words are just plain and simple stupid. Well were not friends anymore, or we never were but whatever. Its not like we were FRIENDS anyways. Aha. She thinks that it is going to affect me and I need her in my life. I have plenty of other friends to keep me up when I need it. Someone like you was just a person who was trying to take me down.


Well Then. Love life is like a killer! Its not fun at all. I remember when it was back in the day. Crushin then lovin. Now its like Liking to going out, then arguing. Then breaking up and maybe getting back together. Problems. Dramas. Then Love. All bad. Well I'm confused about my love life. I'm confused about liking this girl but then again another girl comes to mind. Seriously, I don't know whos the perfect one for me. Or who will be there for me. It gets tiring after awhile knowing you've been searching and searching. yet noone has been found. Well lets start off with this girl. I know she likes some other guy, but then again I like her. I just want to get to know her first and become her friend. Then maybe move forawrd when I know she is willing to give me a chance with her. But what keeps holding me back is the past with another girl. I like feel like I have a chance with her when the day comes. And I dont wanna lose that chance. Cause like she is a girl I can enjoy being with and having her make my day. See Like everythings so complicated and I really don't know what to do from here. I wanna talk to the girl who I feel i have a chance with about the future me and her would have. And I wanna get to know the other girl a lil more. It can't be love at first sight anymore. I have to get to know the person and move forward.

-Bryan Mai.