They All Come an Go.

They all come and go. Fights, arguments, Lies, Ditching. Everything is true about how each an everyone one of us react to what happens. I miss the times when we were all united as one. Now it's like were all seperated into groups. Malling together is'nt the same anymore. Were all broken apart, noone has said anything, not even myself. People have changed over the months. Some for the better, some for the worst. I admit, I've change. For the better and yet for the worst. Its average, because I'm not happy with the way life is just this moment. My friends fighting with one another. Myself irritated with some. This blog is ment for me to let things out. So readers, this is my personal thoughts and opinion, you have your own thoughts.

A couple days ago, I was reminiscing on past childhood. Where it was like freedom, only with Mommy and Daddy on you 24/7. I had this talk with my cousin Henry. We have gone through so much as children, yet still succeeding in it today. I remember when I would spend the night at his place, and he would wake me at six in the morning, just to play ninja turtles. We would play for hours , until we both started getting headaches. Also there was this time, where his mom bought Backstreet Boys CD's from Burger King. He toook those CD's, popped open the Ps2, and we would be dancing and singing along to " I want it that way" while jumping on his bed. And another time when we grabbed two long wooden sticks from his closet, and started fighting like asian ninjas would. We almost broke his fish tank. I will always remember these days with him. Pushing fifteen years so far and yet going.

Now that I'm talking about my past. I just want to let this person know. Your so close to me, yet drifting apart so fast. Without you even knowing. You've change so much in weeks. You've stopped coming to me for advice, you seemly stopped caring. I miss the old you in so many ways. The late night talks, me coming to you for girl advice, you coming to me for boy advice. Now you don't even come to me anymore. Maybe once every two months. But you hurt me so much inside. Its like theres a line between us. You ask many people why I've been acting so weird. But the truth is, why have you been acting different for the past couple of months. DO you know understand, how many people are getting hurt just because of the choices you have made? Leaving your close ones for no specific reason? Are you not dissapointed in yourself? Why are you becoming someone your not ment to be? Why are you chasing him again? Why are you telling everyone you've moved on when its obvious you have'nt. Your lying to others, and your lying to yourself. The truth hurts, its time you finally realized it. Realize who you have become. Realize how many people are sad and crying because you don't care about them anymore. Espically, find it in yourself to stop being who you are now, and start changing into something you TRULLY are.

I have decided on making new changes. Changes as in caring for the ones who have been with me till now. Dealing with all my bullshit, Emotional breakdowns. All I want to say to all of you people is thank you for dealing with me. Its been a bumpy road living life. Soon enough with you all, It will stay smooth for quite a while.

Oh and of course. Im starting to reblog alot more. It helps me with less stress . Good Night.



-Bryan Mai.