No More Crying Myself To Sleep

Today has been a rough day for me. Glad its soon to be over. This morning was great really, woke up at 6 took a shower ate, headed for school. people giving me mutual respect. But then during the afternoon was the real shocker. A guy went up to me and called me either a "Goon" or a "Gook" And I think it was the way I dress. I don't really care what they theink. i was Bay raised and I dress as if I'm from the bay. Haters can hate, but they can never become who I have started to be. But anyways, Heading home I thought it was going to be better. But no, It was worse of all. Started off aim. food.Myspace. AND of course MUSIC. Basic Asian HAHA. Anyways back to the problem. I was on Myspace looking through some bullitins and found a written bulltiin from her. Then I read her tumblr, and I was reading her blog today. ANd I learned alot -.- I learned so much that I was about to kill myself, Give up on life. Overdose and hope to die. Drink as much as I can, Smoke all the things there is to smoke. I'd gone baslistic. It was like 8th grade all over again. Wow. I was so heated up. I Imed my Best. She told me to calm down, How can I calm down when I've read something like this. She was feeling for another guy, and as much as I like her. I can't stop thinking about what she written. Its like I memorized what she wrote by just reading it once. Then After all that. Still heated. I went back to the bullitin board and saw a Bullitin from my EX. It was something for her Blog. AND I went to read hers as well. I was reading, and I swear, wat she wrote really hurt me deep inside. She was sad about me breaking up with her. WOW. Now my nights been the worst night of my life. I told Best that I wa going to cool down. Meaning that I sat on the curve of my street for about an hour,just thinking and thinking. COming back in I Messaged my friend Tyler Higaki, and he released alot of heat out of me. He told me this " Don't get to caught up with her, she'll just hurt you if she isnt that one for you" Took that in and now, I' m here blogging. Wow. Its time for a change in my life. No more liking someone and them not liking you back. Theres no point in trying if that persons liking someone else and you finding out about it. How Stupid I am feeling right now. Well, Hope to get her off my mind. I know it wont be easy. But life is'nt easy. As they all say, "its easier said than done." Time to move on [:

-Bryan Mai.